Missing Hearts is a new project from Jacob Gardner (Raw McCartney, CATARACTS) with love at its core — a perfect new local project to check out on Valentine's Day weekend. He'll play these new songs live at General Public Collective with Alex Calder and Hoops. Here's the origin story of this new project, according to Gardner:
NUVO: How did this project start?
Gardner: This started as a way for me to teach the girl I was with how to play guitar, how to piece together simple chord structures, but mainly it was a way to talk about how I was feeling. I didn't know why but I was very walled up. Frustrated with music and having writer's block, and frustrated with myself for not being able to talk about what I was feeling. The person I was with is the most compassionate person I have ever known, and I was rubber-banding from past experiences where I felt like I had done everything for people and nothing for myself.
So, I set it in my mind that I would take care of myself first and foremost. What I didn't know is that I was also so closed up from being alone for three years. I was pushing her away and it was the worst feeling in the world, to see someone try so hard and to not be able to reciprocate that love. It's a very cold feeling. That being said, we broke up because of this. I had to let her go because I was in no shape to be with someone, even though I cared deeply for her. I knew I had to do something to fix my head, so I halted all projects I was obsessing over and getting nowhere with.
I spent a week in Chicago to get some perspective, and I realized that not only had I become the thing that I told myself I would never be (a reclusive cynic) I had taken my life's motto and in turn the people around me for granted. Everything in moderation. So, I came to her and told her what I had found out, but she had met someone. My heart dropped, but I knew then what I know now, I love her and I will do anything, to show her how much I care. So, I started finishing the songs I had written her long before. Thinking that if I wrote the right words, or melody, she would come back to me. It's a fool's game I know, but when you're in love, that is the only thing that matters. I know that now. Like so many songs and artists before me have said.
NUVO: What is different in your approach to this?
Gardner: So, many things are different about this in comparison to anything that I've ever done. There is an underlying functionality to all of the songs. They are made to teach someone how to play and write music. Showing her how basic chord structures and melodies can make a song. So, every part of every song is very, very simple. Anyone could play the bass parts, drums, or even the solos. Aside from that, I feel very strongly about what I'm talking about in these songs. There's no ambiguity or stretching metaphors. I'm just trying to say what I'm feeling. I love her, I miss her, I want to do right by her.
NUVO: Where do you see this going?
Gardner: I see this continuing to be a cathartic experience. I see this being a way to teach myself how to be a better musician, and how to love unconditionally. I see this being the only way that I can communicate these feelings appropriately with the person its intended for. Other than that, I'm not forcing anything anymore. I've learned I need to let things happen and not obsess over things I can't control. I have no deadlines and I don't want them. Still, there is a release date for some vinyl. It just so happens to be on her birthday... coincidence?